I am mother to one child born in Iran (1982), Javad who was stolen by his father at 10 mos old, and two American children, Amelia, born in 1987, and Andrew, born in 1989, who are pretty perfect kids or close to it anyway. And I'm a grandmother now (so young!) to my daughter Amy and son-in-law Mikey's little kids, Levi Alexander and Vanessa Marguerite who are real cuties.
I'm an ex-Pentacostal Christian, ex-Muslim, free-spirited witch with no religious affiliation just... you know, flirtations for the fun of it. Basically, I'm an agnostic with slightly Wiccan leanings & interest in all things paranormal.
I love to dance (mostly ballroom and beladhi, but any sort is fun) and I'm into all sorts of art but I think my special talent is for writing. My one published book so far is a memoir of my time living under the Islamic Regime of Iran as an American Muslimah and my escape from both Iran and Islam. It's called Lost in Foreign Passions written under my previous name of Debra Kamza.
We've seen several movies recently that are definitely worth a mention and nearly all are out on DVD and Blueray already. The first of these, Cloud Atlas, I absolutely LOVED and I'm sure I mentioned before. It's wonderful how it shows a greater scheme of our intertwined lives rather than just the assumed mundane here and now that begins with birth and ends with death and does so in a way that can only be described as positively majestic, covering the progression of an interlocked group of souls from 100 years in our past to 100 years in our future.
Some of my favorite lines from the movie are...
“Unlimited power in the hands of limited people always leads to cruelty.”
“My life amounts to no more than one drop in a limitless ocean. Yet what is any ocean, but a multitude of drops?”
“Power, time, gravity, love. The forces that really kick ass are all invisible.”
“You say you're 'depressed' - all i see is resilience. You are allowed to feel messed up and inside out. It doesn't mean you're defective - it just means you're human.”
“Our lives are not our own. We are bound to others, past and present, and by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.”
“Souls cross ages like clouds cross skies, an' tho' a cloud's shape nor hue nor size don't stay the same, it's still a cloud an' so is a soul. Who can say where the cloud's blowed from or who the soul'll be 'morrow? Only Sonmi the east an' the west an' the compass an' the atlas, yay, only the atlas o' clouds.”
Wonderful, wonderful, deeply meaningful movie.
We also saw Oblivion in the theater and, as far as I know, is still there, or at least not yet out on DVD. That one was great too, albeit a bit predictable. Both Jeb and I knew what was going down each step of the way. This did not diminish the story/movie in the slightest though. We still loved it.
Les Miserables had good reviews and some of our favorite stars in it, so when it came out on DVD, Jeb went and got us a copy.
I keep telling myself I should have been impressed... and maybe I was just too tired to appreciate it properly. Work has been stressful lately. But... Well, it's not your usual musical with burst of song in jubilant or retrospective moments accompanied by invisible symphonies. No. It's sung mostly acapella and Every Single Line is sung. Every One! It's also a bit depressing in how hopeless these people's everyday lives seemed. Yet two things of positive note: certain of the characters rose above their circumstances to be better persons than it was easiest for them to be. They were kind and/or brave when it would have been much easier, even normal, for them to have turned away or run. Also, when you look at the "normal" mind set and class stratum of that day and age, you really have to appreciate how far humanity has spiritually advanced in the interim. Yes, there are still cruel people, inequities, and crime out there, but they are far less institutionally acceptable now than they were then... at least for the most part, or at least in the part of the world represented here. Nonetheless, I have fell asleep three quarters of the way through the movie and have yet to finish it. My bad.
I picked up Femme Fatale and The Passengers at a thrift store a few weeks ago and they proved to be really good finds. Maybe all of you have heard of them or seen them before, but I hadn't.
My favorite line in Femme Fatale was more of a one liner by Antonio Banderas when the bad girl in question, having gone through considerable pains to look the maiden-in-distress to him, walks ahead of him into her suite and starts casually stripping right in front of him while, shocked speechless, he stays frozen in place until she's down to her white lace underthings. Then, with a look on his face reminiscent of his big-eyed kitty character, Puss and Boots...
...he asks, "Are you flirting with me?" and then gulps audibly at her answering smile and he's so johnny on the spot on... well... let's just say he makes up for lost time so fast it come across as flat out hilarious. Priceless! And I think "flirting" is way too weak a word for the situation. LOL Later, by the time he realizes she's playing him and that she's more than a little bad for him to put it mildly, he still proves unable to resist her even when he's trying, quite literally, his damnedest. He is so cute and she is sooooooo BAD!
This young counselor (Anne Hathaway) is working with the survivors of a devastating plane crash and is perplexed when they don't all tell the same story of what happened but tells herself it's just because they're traumatized. Their memories are jumbled. One of the passengers, however, is even more confusing than the others: this hunky, funny guy is as cool as a cucumber, singularly undisturbed, and flirting with her relentlessly and being very sweet and supportive to her, like their roles were reversed, while all the while telling her, "I'm not your patient." Against her better judgment, she ends up falling for him in a big way. He's like a tsunami: irresistible. But then the other people she's counseling start disappearing and she begins to suspect a cover up. But it turns out to be something far weirder and much more wonderful. But I'm not going to tell you what, because that would be a spoiler.
Had to laugh yesterday morning when I looked out the window at some baby rhododendrons I planted yesterday. A squirrel came down from the pine tree next to one and stood for a time parting the leaves and flower clusters with his little hands as if checking for flaws. Then, apparently satisfied it was perfect, he dropped onto the dirt and rolled around for a while like a playful kitten before jumping up to go and examine each of the other things I planted. He was soooo cute!
Anyway, what movies have seen lately and what did you think of them? Name me 5 good ones back that I haven't listed here?
I tried to post this last night but it was sooooooo good that Xanga ATE it! Can you believe that? The nerve! So let's try it again.
For the Omelet you need:
4 eggs
1/2 cup soy sauce
1 tsp or more of tabasco sauce
1/2 cup sour cream
2 or 3 TBSP carmelized onion
Mix it with a fork until frothy and light. Cook in a cooking sprayed electric skillet (tilting as neccessary to ensure egg mixture covers entire bottom) until shininess goes away. You may need to cover it for a bit.
For the Brown Sauce that goes atop it you need:
1 cup soy sauce
a few drops almond extract
1/4 cup brown sugar
1/4 cup or more of corn starch (I didn't measure this but know it was at least this amount)
1 TPSP butter or margarine
Gingerale... you won't use a full can, but you will come close. Add slowly, stirring every little step of the way, or it will foam right out of the measuring cup.
Stir these together in a 2-cup size glass measuring cup. Heat for two minutes in the microwave but keep an eye on it. You may need to give it a stir from time to time to keep it from boiling over. The consistency should be gravy like and semi translucent dark brown. Add cornstarch if neccessary to thicken or gingerale to thin, stirring as you go. If you have to add anything then back it goes to the microwave for additional heating until it bubbles.
For the filling, which is entirely optional, you could use just about any warmed stir fry left overs like...
Sweet and sour tuna with bell peppers, pinapple, and peanuts
Sugar peas (if still crisp - forget it if they're not), celery, onions, carrots, beansprouts, water chestnuts and mushrooms with either dark tender chicken strips, shrimp, or tofu
Bell peppers, onion, mushrooms, broccoli, and tender strips of rib eye steak or tofu
Drop your chosen filling in a narrow straight line down the center of the omelet OR don't.
Either way, you fold first one side of the omelet over to the center and then the other and give 1 minute more before turning the heat off.
If you want to be fancy, you can then slide the omelet off the skillet onto a serving dish. I didn't. I was too afraid of making a mess of it and Jeb doesn't care much for fancy anyway. Things like fine china, special serving dishes, and candlelight are always completely lost on him. So I just served it right in the skillet with a rubber spatula to cut and serve it and the Brown Sauce on the side along with corn on the cob as a side.
And Jeb liked it, LOTS, with or without the sauce.
1. You need: one box Jiffy corn muffin mix, 2 eggs, 1/2-cup sour cream; 1-cup shredded Kraft mexican cheese mix; 2 TBSP soft margarine/butter; 1/4 cup carmelized onion (the Asian grocery store sell this mashed in a jar but you can always carmelize the onions yourself), 4 TBSP minced garlic, Johnny Season salt, paprika, & cumin to taste. Stir together. Spray muffin pan with cooking spray, half-fill each of the 18 cups, and bake at 355 F. for about 20 minutes. Yummy when fresh! We had these for dinner last night instead of potatoes with salad, barbecued steelhead trout, and salsa picante.
2. Dreamt I was being escorted through a hospital or something like one by my mother and a young co-worker named Amber. I needed to be "adjusted" or something like that. The floors of the very broad corridors were highly polished and white. The walls were mint green. There were many swinging doors on either side and personal in white/pale uniforms of somesort. I couldn't walk. I kept floating up into a horizontal position, unable to help it if they didn't hold me down very firmly. The oddest thing about this dilema was that it felt VERY familiar, as though I frequently had this problem. I'm actually wracking my brain try to figure why.
3. I meant to fight off the spring fever this year and not waste time gardening again only to fail again, but damn it was gorgeous out this weekend and last. So I've succumbed again. Back out in the garden pulling weeds and planting things again. I couldn't help it.
4. Spent a lot of time working on an underground house design I may shortly post pictures of. I'm having so much fun with this one, learning all kinds of new things en route. Had an error in the program though and lost all the work I'd and done (and yes saved) on Saturday. It was corrupted and couldn't be retrieved, but that's okay: I remembered what I'd done and just redid it, only better the second time.
5. Went dancing at Noc-Noc on Saturday night. Had as much fun dancing as watching the other dancers.
A guy I've nicknamed the Energizer Bunny is there every single time, dancing every dance, a regular boss on the floor, and always all by himself, but a fantastic dancer. Looks like he could perform on Broadway. Very professional looking. He had a rival this time though. A guy with short-shorts and jazz shoes entered the floor with a very primly dressed young girl on his arm. He danced with her for less than a minute before pirouetting away from her and taking over the dance floor with some fantastic dance moves the included high leaps, fast turns, and launching off the wall while she ended up dancing by herself in a corner. I don't think she was his girlfriend though. He did not appear to be a straight guy by any stretch of the imagination. But he was a great dancer.
I have a feeling that both these guys are regular performers in the burlesque shows that the club put on other nights of the week. There are quite a few really good dancers that come on Friday nights to dance alone or in groups of one gender or the other, both male and female, but Energizer Bunny is the best of them. Once, when a young woman was crossing the dance floor with 3 drinks clutched between her hands, he deliberately teased her by dancing a circle around her, pirouetting at each of the 8 points. Must have made her awfully nervous. LOL.
A very mismatched couple also took the floor... temporarily. He was a slender young man, Asian or Latino, very clean cut and good looking, in a tailored looking formal suit and tie with highly polished dance shoes on. She was a head taller than him, only moderately overweight but dressed badly for her body type in tight short dirty jean cut-offs, short top high heeled boots, and a loose sparkly top. Her greasy looking curly blond hair was tied back in a pony tail and she was wearing B & C glasses. They looked odd together. Odder still when he tried, repeatedly, to lead her into a swing dance. She kept glomming onto him, hugging him so tightly he must have had trouble breathing. Then he'd push her back into dance frame and try again. She insisted on glomming. He had the patience of a saint and made several attempts before finally giving up halfway through the song and leading her back off the dance floor. Poor guy! I wonder how they ended up together?
I dreamt I crossed a threshold into one of my parallel realities that must have been initiated many years in my past because it was VERY different. Just the place I came over looked like a place I was familiar with... White's Nursery. Go figure. But the technology and many aspects of the culture were different enough that I was terrified of being noticed by other people so kept a low profile. Wish I remember more about that, but that's it... and I was trying to find my way back without being noticed.
For some reason, I felt that if I went to the beach at the foot of town, that would be my gateway across because the beach would be nearly identical in all my realities. That's what I figured anyway. But I had trouble finding my way down there. There were houses and streets in the way, in different places than in my own reality and, desperate, I started just cutting through people's yards and thick forest.
An old man saw me emerging from the forest, the ocean so close now it was singing to me, and told me, "This way girl; your other part is here." I didn't know what he meant but for some odd reason (not like me at all), I trusted and followed him into his house and down into the daylight basement that faced on the sea from atop a cliff. And there I was standing by the sliding glass door, turning to smile at me and offer a hand: my doppleganger, the me that belonged to this reality.
Neither the beach nor the sea was my door as it turned out. It was her. I walked into her and she into me and I was home again, just waking up.
I'm getting tired of all the scammers trying to get me online every time I turn around. I've not fallen for any as I've got about all of their tells memorized, being a subject I have bouts of fascination with and have regularly researched to keep abreast of, but it pisses me off that they keep trying, that they still collect their victims even if it's not me. One of these days, maybe soon, I'll do another blog listing their tells as well as the names and photos of those I've found. The names are usually made up. The photos are stolen from people that have nothing to do with the scam but the scammers will use many of the same photos over and over again with many different profile names.
In the meanwhile, I will not be sending any of them any money, but I have thought to send a gift of stinging hornets to appear in their "office" where a bunch them sit at their computers stringing countless victims along at a time. I've done this by accident in the past before I learned spell craft. It occurs to me that I could do it on purpose now. Wickedly enough, the idea of ensuing chaos in the scammers' den rather amuses me. Does that make me a bad person?
To one of them I mentioned that I didn't have a credit card and he got upset and said, "What????!!!! Everyone has a credit card!!!! For crying out loud, go get yourself a credit card at once!!!!"
LOL. Ah gee, I wonder why he cares so much?
I just hate being lied to even if they're sweet lies thickly coated in honey.
Bring forth the hornets. Make them a plague on the scammers. Let them sting the lying faces and swell the tongues and the fingers of those that speak the pretty lies. Let them follow the liars from one den to another until the lying stops and the victims set free of the noose. So mote it be!
I dreamt last night that all the family were gathered together at my grandparents house... only the house was different than the one they actually lived in during my lifetime. Possibly it was the one they raised their kids in. In any case, we all sat together at one long table, both living and passed on, including my grandparents.
My grandmother passed away this November past at the age of 97, my grandfather passed 10 years previous, so it was surprising to see them sitting there chatting with everyone including my uncle Grant who died before I was born. I recognized him from photographs: young, dark haired, cocky grinned, and looking a little bit like Elvis, though not nearly so much as my Uncle Keith did. Everyone except my mom and step father was laughing at chatting, but it still struck me as a little strange.
Grandma laughed at something someone said and commented, "I'm getting too old for this," then, jokingly in a pseudo quavering voice, "I'm just a fraaaaaiiiil little old lady," clearly not meaning it. She looked great and was her usual bouncy lively self as was Grandpa with his dead pan teasing and pranking and chuckles breaking out over his face at anyone who fell for it.
I glanced over the table at my mother and step father Fred who were sitting there looking... baffled, bemused, confused, doubting what they thought they were seeing and hearing. So I asked them, "Do you see what I see? Do you see Grandma and Grandpa and Grant and the others."
They shot me sharp looks as if daring me to say it was so, and Fred very slowly said, "yes... I do," and Mom asked me, "Do you?"
"I do," I answered, wondering to myself why even I felt a little startled.
Mom looked as though she thought I was messing with her. Her lips tightened and her eyes swam.
"See? I told you they were still here," I said a lot more confidentally than I felt.
She nodded acknowledgment at me and the tears spilled over.
Grandma stood and went around the table to encircle her shoulders with one arm and giver her a squeeze saying, "Why Dolly, what are you crying about?"
Mom turned and kissed the hand upon her shoulder and started sobbing in earnest then.
The last two Mondays I haven't stayed for the second hour of bellydancing because the first hour tired me out so much after a stressful day of work. Last time I figured, okay, enough of this, and told Jeb to stop signing me up for the both classes.
The first class (7:15 to 8:PM) is called Beginning Bellydance but all levels participate in it from first years to 20 years. It's basically a matter of keeping tuned and Rishi breaks everything down so even novices can get the gist. The second class is called Choreography (8:15 to 9PM). In Choreography, we work on a specific choreographed dance in preparation for actual performance.
"Okay, so how about just the second class?" he says.
I think about me on stage. Okay. I did that before. I can do it. I love the dance so much more than I can ever be concious of the watching crowd. But I'm so self-concious about my prodigious weight. Well no... that's an excuse I realize. I've seen bigger dancers than me that were really great. Okay. I'm good but not great. The trouble is I'm getting worn out. I told him that.
"Well if you don't take the second class that means you're dropping out of the troupe," he pointed out.
I gave him a stricken look. OMG it was true. I just hadn't thought about it that much. I'm only doing this for fun in the first place. But giving up? ERG. That would begiving up.
"...Or," he continued, "you can grow a pair and hang with it."
"Humph! I got a pair shimmying at you!" I said and shimmied said pair at him over the table top.
Yeah, don't ask. You don't want to know.
I ask him fairly often why he wants me to do this in the first place. And he DOES want me to. Every time I've dropped out for breif periods, he's always pushed me right back in there. Yet only rarely do I ever perform for him except when we're both on the dance floor since at home he'd much rather watch his video games than anything I might be doing. But he always says it's because dancing is a part of who I am and that I'd just wither and die without it. Guess he's got me there but still...
The dream I had this morning sort of incorporated all of that in a weird dream logic kind of way....
I dreamt I'd arrived at dance practice with the troupe in a hilltop park/recreation area that wasn't quite earthly somehow. But family members and friends were following each of the dancers and sitting up lounge chairs around our dance area and some just sprawling out on the grass IN our area. Despite this distraction, we began our practice and Rishi, Melila, and Fateen being particulary hard on us, a fast drum solos until we were red and radiant and running short of breath.
Oh good grief and the people were clapping and calling and making other strange noises and worse, there were more of them! Strangers were now clustering in around us until we could hardly dance without tripping over someone. When I actually did trip over SEVERAL people, who literally held me upright to keep me from falling right on my face, I twisted my ankle so badly I wasn't about to continue dancing.
Dream typical of me, I flew away then in a proper premadonna huff. Well, not the premadonna party; just the flying part.
The other troupe members tried to stop me, begging me not to go, saying they needed me, trying to grab my ankles and pull me down like Jeb usually does. But I was annoyed and would have none of it. Didn't believe them anyway. No one really needed a clumsy fat bellydancer like me.
But in the air, though I couldn't fly high in this dream (just high enough to get about 15-feet tops over the ground), I felt graceful again. It was another one of those places where some people could fly but not everyone so I didn't exactly have a crowd to weave through up here. I was pretty much alone above the crowd's heads. Even so I felt really sad... ridiculous looking, out of place, unwanted, unloved, crowded out, extrananeous, talents wasted....
So I'm exploring the strange city that's around the park, looking for a place I'd want to be, and then I see some sort of open tower by the sea. It's sort of like the Space Needle but with without the beamship thingie perched on top. Instead, it's more like a small pyramid in a large crown on top and there are stairs leading up to it. It's maybe not as tall as the Space Needle is. Maybe only a fourth as high if even that because there are lots of people climbing up and down the stairs like so many energetic ants... which is about the time I realize I've actually managed to attain some respectable height now. I can fly almost to the top, so I do.
The sides of the tower are open lattice work but there are padded magenta carpetted platforms between all the way up with broader steps just for sitting on around a center post of highly polished stainless steel or chrome. I flew in through the broad lattices and landed on a platform only three down from the top. People were sprawled around here in twos or threes or fours, only a few on their feet meandering as I was, but all very quietly except for the occasional sigh or moan or whisper, sometimes even a sob, and it took me a pathetically long moment to discern what the tower was being used for. Oh my. And here is where I'm going to stop except to say that a man I didn't know (one of the solo wanderers) walked toward me and said something... asked me something I couldn't bring myself to answer. Wondered if I should again just fly away. Waking came first though.
I love that name. It describes a perfectly beautiful pristine garden, quiet and serene except for maybe monkey calls, birdsong, the chuckling of little streams, the soughing of wind in the treetops, gracious plenty for all that live there...
Guess what we won't have a lot of if the population keeps exploding as it has been? All of the above.
From MoveOn.org:
Eden Foods--a major organic food company--is suing the Obama Administration over the rule that insurance companies must cover birth control under the new healthcare law. Why? Because as CEO Michael Potter put it, they believe that "these procedures [birth control] almost always involve immoral and unnatural practices."
To that I say "Over population means overstressing the environment, increasing crime rates, overcrowding schools, more highways and traffic, exceeding our natural resources, overflowing dumps, and driving many species into extinction with insufficient land, resources, and pure water left for them. No one who actually wants to practice responsible birth should be prevented from doing it! That's just all kinds of wrong! You want to talk about morality here, how about starting at home?"
If you too would like to give Eden Foods a piece of your mind and/or sign the petition again them, please click HERE.
Anyway, the first place I ever saw Eden used as name of person was in a movie about President Teddy Roosevelt going up against Arab cheiftan in 1904 to rescue and American woman and children the cheiftan had murdered the husband of and taken hostage over there just to embarrass the Sultan. It was called The Wind and the Lion. The American woman's name was Eden. Great movie! The only other person I've ever heard of with that name is right here on Xanga: @shining_garnet.
Eden Foods doesn't deserve to have such a beautiful name if they're going to maintain such earth killing policies as dissallowing birth control from their employees. Just saying...
Spring fever has finally hit me though I swore I'd resist it this year.
Ha.
It never did me much good. I did not inherit my mother's green thumb and have very little time for gardening even on those rare and precious occasions we have perfect weather for it. The weeds and the slugs are always beating me to the goodies and... yes, I'm a bit of a computer buggy so sometimes I don't even try that hard to beat them back. Last year, Spring was our monsoon season and my garden literally drowned while the weeds and the slugs multiplied themselves silly, and everything I did, much of it time consuming and expensive, turned out to be a complete loss. So I said, "Heck with this noise. I am NOT doing this again."
Yeah right.
All I wanted to do this morning from the moment I woke up was plant seed trays. I planted scarlett runner and green beans, sugar peas, broccoli, eggplant, pumpkins, zucchini, lavender, more herbs (just in case I didn't already have enough) and catnip for the kitties. I meant also to plant tomatoes and peppers but lost the seeds for those. I also have mint and mixed lettuce greens to plant but no ready spot for them yet. The potatoes, onions (which I have but don't know how to harvest), Jerusalem artichokes, and lemon basil will, as always, take care of themselves. I couldn't make them go away if I tried. They even survived the drowning last year. I should plant carrots and dakon too I suppose. Just don't have a ready spot for them either yet. Jeb got enthused though and said he'd build me planting boxes for all of these so they might stand a better chance this year.
Anyway, after planting and lunch, I brought some kitchen scraps out to the yard waste bin and started weeding and trimming around the front yard which, despite my lack luster gardening, is blooming its pretty brains out. It was sunny and warm out and way too tempting to resist. Besides, there was LOTS to do.
Where was I?
Oh yes. Cold Soup.
It felt all summery out so by the time I came in I was in the mood to prepare something summery for dinner. For Cold Soup, were you so inclined to follow suit, you will need...
1 can of peaches (small or large depending on how many people you want to serve)
1/2 to 1 cup quartered walnut kernels
1/2 to 1 cup raisins
1 diced cucumber (no need to peel)
1 dice stalk of celery
and 1 to 2 cups vanilla yogurt
Drain the peach juice into a bowl. Dice up the peach slices and add those as well followed by the rest of the ingredients. Chill thoroughly before serving.
We had this as a side with cholo kebabs and roast tomato cooked on the grill and rice with sahmog sprinkled on it. Delicious! It tasted just like summer. Now if the weather will continue acting like this long enough for me to get my garden in, we'll be doing pretty good. It was a really lovely day today.
Photos by Debra Watts (aka Ampbreia). Setups house lizards, hermit crabs, & sometimes amphibians & fish together. They get along if too much the same size to not eat each other. No one tries to eat hermit crabs no matter what.